Patience is a virtue...

Which I am not virtuous in. I have learned over the past month that I need to work on my patience. Therefore, I am praying for it daily.

In the six plus weeks since we found out that we miscarried, my body has taken it's time getting back on track. Let's just summarize it up and say my hormone levels are still higher than they need to be (i.e., my body still thinks I'm pregnant). For most women it takes about two weeks to physically recover, some it takes longer. And I happen to be in that last category...this scenario makes me on edge even more, as I want so badly to add to our family.

When I get upset, I just have to remind myself to take a deep breath (many, many deep breaths) and sit back and relax and know that God has a plan. I had a friend say that in these tough times, it is really hard to understand and accept that fact, not knowing what His plans are. It may not be until years down the road when we look back and say, "Ah, this is why. He wanted this for us."

Last Sunday our preacher spoke directly to my heart when he taught on patience. He said that we need to understand that the work God does in a person's life does not happen overnight, and that we need to reflect on the amazing patience that He has with us. So hard to realize in today's culture when we want everything to happen fast. Like right now. Thank you, Gordon, for reminding me of God's love for me, especially when I do not understand what is going on.

And so, over the last month, I have sought God's word ever more. At this time I am praying the following:

"I waited patiently for the Lord. He turned to me and heard my cry." Psalm 40:1

"Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer." Romans 12:12